pgawk

I really hope I don't fall into the same trap that claimed so many other med hopefuls that stuff the UMAT. A lot of people have called me stupid for deferring my med offer from Griffith and I guess I can see why but I really, really do want to study in my home state. I mean, being a twin has eroded every fibre of independence in my body and while the whole move to the Gold Coast seems exciting, it's just downright terrifying. I don't think I can move out and support myself at the moment. I'll probably sink back into the same depressing pattern of stress eating and bloat beyond comprehendible proportion AGAIN.
Hopefully the UMAT will treat me better this year. It just seems so impossible! Nothing has ever come easily to me (which, on a side note, is probably why I'm so shit at the UMAT) but at the end of the day, the goals I've set myself have always been achieved. I really hope this one is achievable...
I know if I'm given the chance to be interviewed, I can show how deserving I am of a med position in this state. I've been holding onto the dream of studying at UNSW/UWS/UNCLE for a while now and just the sheer thought of it makes me feel as if I can sail without wind.

Anyway, I don't know if anyone else is reading this. I've never been keen on the whole 'venting via the internet' thing but this actually feels really good. I might make a habit of it.

Pierre, signing out (excuse any grammatical/ punctuation errors. Every ounce of English skiiLllZzZz that I possess is currently being used to write this stupid dux speech)